- YouTuber Trisha Paytas said she is transgender in her latest video.
- Paytas said she identifies as a gay man because she is attracted to other gay men and loves “glam” and “voluptuousness.”
- She also said she has always had “penis envy.”
- Some people were upset because they thought she was making a joke out of transgender issues, and called her out on social media and in the video’s comments.
- “Just know your judgments hurt me a lot,” she wrote in response. “This isn’t something I would joke about or take lightly.”
- Insider has contacted Paytas for comment.
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YouTuber Trisha Paytas posted a video on October 7 called “I AM TRANSGENDER (FEMALE TO MALE)“.
Paytas, who is infamous for her trolling videos and emotional outbursts, started trending because she said she feels more masculine than feminine. She also said she identifies as a gay man because she is attracted to other gay men, and loves “glam” and “voluptuousness.”
“I identify with men better,” she said. “People always think there’s something wrong with me because I don’t have that many girlfriends but I do love girls — I love their sensitivity and all the stuff like that … That’s why I identify more as a gay man because I like guys but I also identify as a guy.”
‘I feel really free and liberated’
Paytas also said she overcompensated for people calling her manly when she was younger by wearing makeup and overly-revealing outfits, but she has always had “penis envy.”
“This sounds so crazy to say out loud, but like, I’ve always thought my life would be so much easier if I had that part,” she said. “If I asserted myself I wouldn’t be a bitch, I’d be a man.”
She ended the video by saying she is “1000%” transgender, but also identifies with her natural born gender, and told people’s it’s okay to identify as whatever you want on any given day.
“So I think that’s where I’m at and I feel really free and liberated,” she said.
In the past few days, Paytas has been posting photos of herself on her Instagram story dressed up as Zac Efron in “High School Musical.” She wrote “Before u judge me, try hard to love me” as a caption for one photo.
The negative comments soon started rolling in on the video.
One person said she had just described being a tomboy in a “dramatic offensive video to get views.”
“Enough is enough how low do these YouTube idiots need to go it’s disgusting!!!” they wrote.
Another person said: “This is what happens when you’re no longer relevant…”
Some people thought she was making a joke out of transgender issues…
On Twitter, musician Grant Landis uploaded a picture of Squidward from Spongebob Squarepants dressed as a clown and said it was “Trisha Paytas when she decided to disrespect the entire LGBTQ community for clout because she wasn’t getting enough attention.”
—spooky g 🕸🦇👻 (@grantlandis) October 7, 2019
YouTuber Stef Sanjati pointed out it was tasteless to make light of transgender issues when trans people in the world are suffering.
“This would be more funny if girls weren’t being killed for disclosing this fact,” she said.
Drag queen Vicky Vox told her followers to report Paytas.
“Using gender identity as click bait is a privileged act of violence,” she said. “I’m not gonna stand for it. I don’t care what it’s actually about. The headline and photo used cannot be serious. Trans people are murdered for quietly trying to live their life. Big NOPE.”
—VICKY VOX (@TheVickyVox) October 7, 2019
Paytas has responded to the criticism, saying she was not joking when she made the video. She replied to Sanjati saying it was “not meant to be funny.”
“Because I don’t look like a traditional male on the outside, I’m a joke?” she said. “Men can wear dresses, heels and makeup u know. Close minded and ignorant.”
To Vox she said: “You don’t know me, my journey, my struggle, my transition.”
“I’ve been with a gender identity therapy specialist for the past 6 months cause I hated who I was since I was 3,” she said. “Think before you tweet, THIS is more harmful than me sharing my story.”
…But some were more open to believing her
British YouTuber Jake Edwards shared some thoughts about Paytas’ video in a thread. They said while the language she used is potentially harmful to the trans community, Paytas did not deserve to be flooded with hate.
“No trans person entered this world with a full understanding of the correct terminology to use,” they said. “My main issue with the video was the lack of understanding and conflating gender stereotypes with gender identity. BUT this should be met with allowing Trisha the space to learn.”
—Jake Edwards ✨ (@jakeftmagic) October 7, 2019
Paytas also posted more Instagram stories where she apologized for offending anyone and tried to explain herself further.
“I’m sorry that offended you but that is my truth and my reality that I have been facing,” she wrote. “It’s honest and it’s the difficulty I’m facing while transitioning.”
She added that she would not apologize for “what I’ve lived and gone thru in my struggle to find my true self and identity.”
She then gave her followers the opportunity to ask her questions about her “coming out video.”
“Just know your judgments hurt me a lot,” she wrote. “This isn’t something I would joke about or take lightly.”
You can watch the full video below.
Insider has contacted Paytas for comment.